The Long and Winding Road

In the last post I spoke of a way of seeing the world, one that seems common among most mystical traditions, but is new and often different from how most of us see the world. Another common thing I read in most mystical literature speaks to the Journey.

Simply put, the mystics suggest that the mystical journey is part of what brings one to the new way of seeing the world, to the place of peace.

So I want to present two ideas in this post.

1. I want to explore the idea of the journey
2. I want to make it more accessible to other apprentice mystics

We have a deep subconscious recognition of the journey. Most of us hear stories of a journey and often recognize it as a metaphor for our soul, or consciousness, or for at least something worth reaching for. Thousands of stories exist about journey's; all the way from the yellow dog (Disney), to Alice in Wonderland, to the Argonauts and their search for the golden fleece. Jesus made many journey's beginning with one in the desert. Noah made a journey, but then, so did Buddah, Mohammed, and many others. Many religions celebrate the passage of people from one place (state of mind?) to another. The journey often represents the journey of awareness or of awakening.

In the Bible the tribes of Israel were freed from Egypt (which often represents a state of captivity or of being asleep, unaware), and travelling for 40 years to get to the promised land. This is the metaphor of the mystical journey. We are all asleep, unaware early in our life. for some of us, something happens to bring us to awareness. we wake up. We discover there is a journey to be had. We don't know what it is, we just know that it is different than anything we have ever attempted before. and it is our journey. People may say to go this way or go that way... but something deeper, inside of us takes us the direction we need to go for ourselves.

And those who have realized there is a journey often identify with the idea, even to the point of taking on a name, or at least a title. Pioneer, Pathfinder, Trekker, Seeker, Searcher, Explorer, Journeyman, hunter, wanderer, pilgram, tracker, and many, many more names.

So again, while the mystics often talk about "the journey" (Tao is often translated into English as meaning "The Way"); just like learning to "see" the world in a new way, we are often left with the idea that the journey is long and arduous (40 years in the desert??? no thanks!). Symbollically our own personal trip to Mecca... But I'd like to suggest my own experiences with the journey that differ from this idea.

The journey can be fast. In a flash, in a moment you can suddenly have an insight and your way of seeing the world changes. More importantly, even if the journey takes a long time, just having the feeling that your on such a journey changes your perspective. The journey itself can bring a great deal of peace in and of itself. Finally, like some of my previous posts,

Finally, I'd like to suggest that the mystical literature often speaks of the journey as this magical, mysterious sort of thing - big, hard to get to; but my own experiences suggest that once you begin to wake up, you find your feet planted on a path, and off you go. It's more like the journey finds you, and if you don't resist too much, you'll find it simply becomes part of you, and not so mysterious or big or hard to understand. it is your OWN path. and that's what makes it powerful, unique, mysterious, beautiful, and full of wonder. Or is that Wander?

What color is your Rainbow?

Many mystical texts speak about "seeing" the world in a new way. Today I saw an article that made me think about this, but it isn't what the mystics have in mind.

This months Scientific American has an article about how color vision evolved. Too much to go over in a short blog, but the article talks a lot about how we see color and how other animals see color. We have cones in our eye that activate from three colors (trichromatic). There are many animals that only have cones for two colors (dichromats), and even a few that only have one. A few birds have sensitivity for four colors (tetrachromatic).

So there's lots of fun territory here, all about "seeing" the world in different ways.

What would it "look" like to see only two? What would it look like to see four? What did the first people who had three colors (and hence could now see many more colors than their two-color friends) experience? Think about all aspects of that experience? We could playfully recreate it, but let's say they could now see orange, and more reds. Would they be suppressed (burned at the stake), resisted, or just tossed off as a bit looney? We join Tribecca (who can see three pigments) and Dick (who only sees two).

Tribecca asks, "Could you hand me that orange?"
Dick replys, "orange? what's that. do you mean this grey?"
T - "well, I suppose. but it's orange."
D - "what does that even mean?"
T - "I'm talking about the color"
D - "Yeah, it's grey"
T - "no, it looks like the sunset"
D - "well, at least you got that right."
T - "so you like all the colors?"
D - "what colors?"
T - "just hand me the grey..."

This article is mostly just to get you thinking about different ways to "see" the world. Nothing too deep or mystical, except that it feels odd to try to think about new - unnamed colors. And what it means to try to see them in your mind. Can you name all the 24 million colors you can display on a Mac? I know I can't. but I can see them. If asked, I can point to 10 or 15 different shades of yellow in a painting and probably name most of them (yellow, yellow green, light yellow, kind of a orange yellow, but not as orange as that one, etc.). But the colors are relative. I might point to a different shade first next time and call that yellow and shift my answers just a little...

So, i keep talking about seeing new colors. Does it seem possible that we all see the world a little differently? Or is the difference probably pretty minimal. One of the points of the article states that some women have four types of visual pigments instead of three. What if you're one of them? Can you picture how the world might look different for other people with more or less than you? That's where all the fun begins.

ok, that's it for now. "See" you later.

The Art of Letting Go

Life has a rhythm, it cycles, it turns, it wheels, it spins, and it never stays still. Yet, too often we want to change that rhythm, we want to rush it, or slow it, or stop it altogether.

We only seek to change the rhythm out of fear

The wise learns to dance with life's rhythm, to enjoy what life brings, and to let go when the time has come to move on. Most of what we learn in society is the opposite of this. We cling to what we are afraid we will lose. We run from that which scares us. But life ebbs and flows. Joseph Campbell spoke of this dance:

The warrior's approach is to say 'yes' to life. - yes to it all
To participate joyfully in the sorrows of the world

(A Joseph Campbell Companion, pg. 17)

As I sit here working on the next phrase, I find myself thinking about rhythm and fear and the circle of life, and I wonder what to share. What do I fear? I find that the challenge of writing a blog, to me, is having these airy, heady ideas, and then bumping into real life. Discovering that I feel out of rhythm with life myself, and wondering how to get back in step. That I have all these ideas in my head, ideas I have seen change my life, bring me peace, helped me weather some tough times - but they don't always help. And if I share the darkness, can those who read still see the light?

And it is exactly in writing that last line that what I really want to express comes ringing through, for me. The importance of fully embracing life, the good with the bad; the bliss with the terrifying; the beauty with the mundane with the disfigured (yes, even reaching only for the extremes still misses the point of embracing everything).

Mystical Orange Juice

Most mystic literature begins by telling you how impossible it is to comprehend the mystical experience. Here's an example:

The tao that can be told
is not the eternal Tao
The name that can be named
is not the eternal Name.

But if you think about life for a moment, you'll realize that all of our experiences are like that. How would you describe the taste of freshly squeezed orange juice to someone who had never tasted it before? We fill books trying to explain both the similarity and the uniqueness of being in love, traveling abroad, etc. Human experience is unexplainable - but we never stop trying. The mystical experience is just another experience. One that brings some unique feelings and insights, but so does falling in love, or touching the stove for the first time.

Hotdogs and Coffee

I heard a joke the other day that works well for this blog.

Rene' Descartes walked into a breakfast nook to order some food. The waitress walks up and asks, "Would you like some coffee?"

"I think not." he said. and promptly disappeared.

Ha. I like that joke. and that's what I want to talk about. I think writing a blog is challenging. I love my wife's blog (http://bobbilewin.blogspot.com/) for the simple reason that she write well, and writes from her heart (and I might be a little biased... maybe... just a little).

What did the Dali Lama say to the Hot Dog vendor? "Make me one with everything!"

In the world of posts about mysticism or being an agnostic... I just want to be the mustard. And maybe on really good days, I can be the relish.

Hope

The Christian scriptures record a story of the prophet Jesus that provides an interesting insight of hope, in the book of Mark, chapter 4, paragraphs 16 & 17.

¹⁷And there was delivered unto him the book of the prophet Esaias. And when he had opened the book, he found the place where it was written,

¹⁸The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,

¹⁹To preach the acceptable year of the Lord.

As one of his first public discourses, Jesus offers a beautiful synopsis of the mystical world view by quoting Isaiah, that there is hope. He speaks to those that are poor, brokenhearted, captive, blind, or bruised and tells them there is hope. It doesn't hurt to compare the original writing in Isaiah, the first 3 verses of chapter 61.

Many people of ancient societies saw the world more symbolically than we do today, and sometimes we believe that our way of seeing the world is more modern, mature, and better. We see this need to attach meaning to everything - as primitive and childish. Much of the mystical world view requires a certain willingness to set aside our own prejudices, at least for a time.

So while he spoke of the poor, the blind, and the brokenhearted, I believe that many would have understood him to speak more of those who felt this way emotionally. To those who felt they have an empty life (poor), or who feel disillusioned or that life holds many unmet expectations (brokenhearted), or who feel trapped (captive), or even can't see another way to live life (blind), or to those who just simple feel beaten down and hopeless -- to all of these Jesus speaks the mystic's message, there is another way to see the world. That life has hope.

I believe Jesus chose Isaiah for a reason. To me, when I read Isaiah, I see a particular message repeated over and over again, almost like Bach takes a musical motif and repeats it in endless ways - forwards, backwards, stretched out, shortened, in contrast to itself, and many other variations. Here is the message of Isaiah, as I understand it:

1. To those who feel beaten and downtrodden by life
2. You feel pain because of how you see the world
3. But there is hope
4. There is another way to see
5. Through at-one-ment [a.k.a truth, a.k.a G-d, a.k.a the mystical world view, a.k.a. enlightenment, a.k.a. nirvana, a.k.a many other terms]

I enjoy reading the symbols of the ancient stories, and surprisingly they often correlate with modern dream dictionaries. So, I will end this post with a quick side tour of a few symbols as I have come to understand them (and often as expressed in many dream dictionaries - especially Jungian interpretations).

• Mountains - often mean obstacles and challenges (can also mean goals or achievements)
  
• Valleys - usually denote depression, as in the valley of despair, or of the shadow of death
• Road - represents finding ones way. when you are lost and find a road, you know that it leads somewhere
• God - Truth, Unity, Oneness, Aleph, the Beginning
• One - God, Unity, Truth, Aleph (the Hebrew letter A), the mystic's way of seeing the world
  
• Wilderness - A state of being barren, a barren soul, unnourished
• Garden - A bountiful and full soul. A soul that has found peace, contentment.
• Crookedness - represents confusion, many voices, insecurity
• Rough Places - a period of difficulty, hardship, tough times (like tough economic times)
  

Christian's often quote the following verses as a prophecy of John the Baptist, whose voice was "crying in the wilderness." If you read it using the symbols above, it takes on a whole new meaning, one of hope and solace for those who live, "in the wilderness."

From Isaiah, chapter 40, verses 3 and 4

3 - The voice of him that crieth in the wilderness, Prepare ye the way of the LORD, make straight in the desert a highway for our God

4 - Every valley shall be exalted, and every mountain and hill shall be made low: and the crooked shall be made straight, and the rough places plain:

For some of you, as you read these two verses, perhaps a new way of seeing these verses jumped out at you. At the risk of simplifying too much, I will repeat the elements within the verses with my own interpretation.

• The voice of him that crieth in the wilderness [to those who are in pain - in THEIR OWN wilderness]
• prepare ye the way of the LORD [there is hope. get ready for hope]
• make straight in the desert a highway for our God [you will find truth, or truth will find you]
• Every valley shall be exalted [your sorrows will be lessened]
• and every mountain and hill shall be made low [your obstacles will be removed]
• and the crooked shall be made straight [you will find the way in the midst of chaos and multiple voices]
• and the rough places made plain [and the hard times will be over]

I see these verses as part of Isaiah's broader message of hope. And maybe you're in a place to hear that message. If you life is one of struggle, if people around you just "don't get it", if there is often pain everywhere you go... perhaps you can at least hear this much of the message from Isaiah and Jesus, that there is Hope.

What is an Agnostic?

I may as well start from the beginning by saying that I intend to ramble. Not just ramble, but to verbally (typographically???) travel many places, most of them seemingly unrelated.

But today I will start simply, asking the question, "What is an Agnostic?"

Atheists and Believers (Theists) often think of an agnostic as a weak version of an Atheist, or someone who sits on the fence unable to decide. But the Atheist and the Theist argue the question "IS there a God?" and the Theist will answer, "Yes, of course!" and the Atheist will answer "NO, how could there be a God?"

Richard Dawkins makes this point in his book, "The God Delusion," where he even goes so far to suggest that a completely impartial agnostic would say there is a 50% chance that there is a God, and a 50% chance that there is not a God. This is a very odd position, to say the least, to let two other groups define your own beliefs. [To be fair, he does explain that permanent agnostic would argue that they don't belong on this range - I will post more about his list in a later post.]

No, Agnostics argue a different question entirely. Their question is based in the root of their name, "gnosis" the Greek word for knowledge. Agnostics argue the question, "CAN we know if there is a God?" To which they reply, "No, we cannot."

What's exciting to me is that there is another group that takes up the argument (for, how can you have an argument with only one group?). Throughout history in many places and in many ways there has always been a group, usually referred to as the mystics who contend that there is a way to Know there is a God. They are the Masons, Gnostics, the Sufi's, the Kaballahists, and many, many others. Even poets, mad men (and women), and spiritual teachers.

So, just as Richard Dawkins posits his range of 7 steps to "guide" us in the (mis)understanding the various kinds of Theists and Atheists; this blog will be an exploration of the other question, "Can we KNOW, if there is a God?" and the range of answers between "Yes" and "No."